Allrighty then. First off I feel VERY happy because of the elections. Its so cool to see how much people got up to vote and how everything seems to be progressing. It feels like the world does have hope after all.

Nevertheless, I am in dire need of venting. I am probably going to delete this after writing it. The reason is because lately it seems impossible to tell anyone anything so I will tell you, my little cyber journal.

How could I put it? Well, ever since _________ I haven't seen anyone in the same way. It seems selfish to be so picky but the candidates have quite some large shoes to fill. Its either that or I still haven't let go of ________. That would explain why I still think of _____ every other night. Then I get all nostalgic.

I must have some issues because my swirling head keeps me from sleeping. I wake in the middle of the night and here you have me, posting journal entrees at 2:34 AM, on a school night. I feel so scared of what may lye out there. My back becomes cold as I imagine the big world, big cities with millions of people and me in the middle, lonely and lost. It makes me want to curl into a ball under the covers.

Right now I am in my dark room, curtains open overlooking the faint shadows of the trees and the back yard. I lay on my bed, my beloved laptop on my lap radiating a small perimeter of light. This perimeter of light is the only safe place. Outside it there is darkness, you can get lost in it. For now, I will stay on the bed, cozy under the covers disconnected from the harsh world that I fear.

It makes me want to dream. Yeah, I will finish venting and go to sleep. Then I will enter a dream and will bounce on comets that will take me to some distant planet. Some really cool planet where you can do magic, where that one crush seems to be as crazy for you as you are for them. Probably a planet that has Hogwartz, that way I can be a wizard! I would like to be in Grifindor, though I wouldn't mind ravenclaw. Allright then, I'll do that and soon. I have school tomorrow, not to mention ASB. GAHHHH, I have to be organized, LOL thats impossible. Off to jump on comets.